Dear Eczema, I loathe you

Dear Eczema,

I know I’ve expressed a hatred for teething, and a dislike for toilet training, but this goes far beyond that. This isn’t something that happens as the initiation to childhood or as the bitter part of a moment which turns into something beautiful. This is horrendous.

Eczema, you have turned my child into an enraged psychopath.

You’ve turned change time into a war. I look like a crazy person trying to hold him down while he screams as the fresh air awakes his itchy skin.  I spend my time trying to be calm while I wrestle a growing child who’s hands won’t stop itching and grabbing. Bath time is no longer enjoyable. He doesn’t even play. You have taken the joy of splashing from him. He only writhes around in discomfort as he tries furiously to squelch the annoyance of you.

You have me longing for sleep, as you wake him through the night to claw at the creases of skin you infest. I fear that my child may never actually sleep through the night, or go calmly.

I loathe you, eczema.

We’ve tried countless remedies to defeat your anguish, but nothing seems to help. Once it seems you have relented, you come back more terrible. You reduce my baby to a bleeding, crying and whimpering uncomfortable soul. He still remains in your grasp despite all of our attempts to control you or pinpoint what angers you.

As a mother, it hurts me to see my baby in pain or even discomfort. Watching him be plagued Day and night since his first weeks of life, and from every moment since.

He has had enough, and I have had enough of you. Please go away and never show yourself again.

Sincerely,

His Mother

 

8 thoughts on “Dear Eczema, I loathe you

  1. Aw, huge hugs! I’ve been here with both my kids and it sucks. It was worse with my youngest. What worked for my oldest didn’t work for him. We tried everything but the only thing that seemed to give him more immediate relief was The Healer skin stick by Perfectly Posh. I think it has shea butter in it? I got it because I couldn’t find anything without coconut oil, which he had tested positive for during an allergy skin test.

    They both have grown out of it a bit, though we have to be diligent during the winter. I hope your little one manages to outgrow it too. Hang in there, even though I know it’s hard!

    • mummyconfessions says:

      We’ve started using something with just shea butter and one other ingredient and it has seemed to help a fair bit on his skin actually! But, the constant drooling at the moment is really working against us! I’m hoping it will be something he grows out of, but I think it’s linked to his allergies, which he has a fair few. Maybe he will grow out of those too? Hoping!

  2. Meagan says:

    I have dealt with the horrible eczema and my daughter for so many years. The only relief that we found was making our own body products for her so that I knew exactly what was going on her body and what helped her. Try coconut oil based products. That is what has worked for her.

    • mummyconfessions says:

      It’s so hard with buying premade things, because most of them have so many ingredients! We’ve started recently using something with shea butter that is helping a little, but we still need to find something that really just gets it gone! I’m a bit nervous trying new things with him since he has tested positive for a fair few allergies, so it will be something we talk to the immunologist about.

    • mummyconfessions says:

      Thank you for your words! I’m hoping its just a thing he grows out of soon!! We’re trying to find something that really combats it, because the steroid cream seemed to stop helping and I’m not loving using it so much either.

  3. I know exactly how you feel, my 6 year old has struggle with Eczema since he was born, we have done allergy testing and a whole bunch of creams, lotions, and oils. We have finally found a few things that work, but we have to be extremely consistent with them. I hope you are able to find your magic potion soon!!!

    • mummyconfessions says:

      Oh my! Poor thing! We did allergy testing and are working our way through things to try and help him! What worked for you and your little one?

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